The "Perfect" Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ Page 🙏🏻

So I have recently explored the idea of myself being autistic, (the clues were out there. I just had to do some research and look). I am seeing a councillor called Lynne who is helping myself with ĐɆ₱ⱤɆ₴₴łØ₦, A̷n̷x̷i̷e̷t̷y̷ and Stress. Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ has shown itself as an extra amongst these, the latter is the most comfortable evidence of my personality to show itself.

In retrospect, I feel slightly proud and relieved in having Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ and pleased to have (if the test proves it so) something that explains my mind compared to those "Neurotypical" humans.

Something I have learned is that once you leave school, most people do not care that much about your “idiosyncrasies“, (thanks to spell correction I managed to get that word out). Later in our adult life, anyone who continues to amuse themselves with our uniqueness has a shallow and inferior existence. And truthfully do not deserve our acknowledgement. If they cannot respect us, why should their opinion matter?

In truth their opinion does NOT matter. What they think or say should have as little weight in our lives as toilet paper. And what do we do with toilet paper…

We Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦc̥ͦ Ones Must Remember;

We Are Special

We Are OUR Normality,

We Can Achieve.

Thank You 🙏🏻

𝓟𝓲𝓹 🦉

Say Hi, Email Me ~

My test results from the Embrace Autism RAADS site

𝓟𝓲𝓹 “𝔘𝔫𝔲𝔟𝔦𝔰” 𝓖𝓪𝓼𝓴𝓲𝓷 ~ ♾️ ☥ 𓂀🪐🦉🖖🏻🌱

O.C.P: ~ Obsessive Compulsive Perfection

𝓟𝓲𝓹 “𝔘𝔫𝔲𝔟𝔦𝔰” 𝓖𝓪𝓼𝓴𝓲𝓷 ~

♾️ ☥ 𓂀🪐🦉🖖🏻🌱

𓂀 𝔘𝔫𝔲𝔟𝔦𝔰 𝔅𝔩𝔞𝔠𝔨 ☥

🧩 Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ/𝔸𝔻ℍ𝔻

😒 Introvert

🧐 I.N.T.J

👽 ᗩᒪIᗴᑎ

🧑‍🚀 Space Man

🖖🏻 Star Trek Fan

🧙🏻‍♂️🔮 Druid/Witch

🌱🦉 Vegan Owl ~

🤔 I Believe No Animal Needs To Suffer/Die For Me To Live. Animals are not ours to experiment on, eat, wear, use for entertainment, or abuse in any other way. 🌱

🧬 I have a dark soul that I do try and hide it. It draws me to a negative place and it’s not good for me. But I have a personality cross between:

* Wednesday Addams 🧛🏻‍♀️,

* Star Wars/Star Trek (the space man inside of me 👩🏻‍🚀),

* Morgana the Witch (You can have male witches 🧙🏻‍♂️) and

* Rainbow 🌈 Coloured Unicorns 🦄.

So sometimes my head can get quite suffocating and crowded.

🪐 Most of the time I find it “Too peoply”, I struggle with other humans I like to call them. I see myself as an alien 👽 waiting to be collected. Lost on this planet earth 🌏, pretending to be human so I can blend in, waiting my time for my people to come and rescue me,

𝓟𝓲𝓹 "𓂀 𝔘𝔫𝔲𝔟𝔦𝔰 𝔅𝔩𝔞𝔠𝔨 ☥" 𝓖𝓪𝓼𝓴𝓲𝓷 🦉.

I find rocking and finger twitching my most common stims with a dash of balancing thrown in.

✨ I can find life difficult and sometimes life is easier (especially with my medication 💊😔).

✝️ All religion is open. You can not or have any right to say “your god does not exist.” You can not prove something does not exist if you don’t believe in it. I believe all gods exist, choose which one you believe you have faith in 🙏🏻

🦉 I’m 55 years old (personally I have only just reached my teens), and I was bullied and victimised through most of my school life.

💫 ♾️ 🌻 𝓐𝓾𝓽𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓬 & 𝓟𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓭 🌼 ♾️ 💫

🖖🏻 #JanewayIsMyCaptain

♾️ Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦc̥ͦ Characteristic ♾️

My Favourite Stims:

* ℒ𝓊𝒸𝓎 🌻 (My dog)

* 𝔇𝔯𝔲𝔰𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔞 🧛🏻‍♀️ 🐲 (My 𝔇ɨֆǟֆֆօƈɨǟȶɨօռ Bunny🐰)

* 𝒜𝓁𝒾𝒸𝑒 💜 (My Pink/Purple~Kitty)

* ᭙ꪮ᥊ỉꫀ 🎀 My Purple & Pink SquishMellow

* ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒶 🦄 (My Kitten)

* My Wife 𝒞𝒽𝓁𝑜𝑒 🧚🏻‍♀️

* Rocking

* Balancing On One Leg 🤷

* Finger Twitching

* Fidget Toys Galore

* My EarBuds (SoundCore Space A40) Used For:

~ Noise Cancelling With Either

~ Voyager Borg Cargo Bay 2 ~ Star Trek

~ One Hour Spiritus Dawn Chorus ~ The Benedictine Monks Of Nature

~ Music for relaxing (Playlists On My Website)

The Place Or Environment That I Feel Most At Ease With:

* Walking Barefoot Under The Cover And Safety Of Trees

* The Lady Moon 🌒 Shining Above Me

* The Forest 🌳 🌷🌲🥀🌳🌺🌲🌻🌳

* My shop (Pip’s Barbershop), The Natural History Museum

I Would Like To Learn More About:

Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ, 𝔸𝔻ℍ𝔻, ռɛʊʀօɖɨʋɛʀɢɛռȶ. To be able to play the piano, Egyptian History 𓂀 ☥ (Where My Soul And Heart Yearns For) & Science 🧬

Sometimes I Struggle With:

Humans (People), Illogical Processes, Stupidity, Lying (Always!), Animal Cruelty (Again Always. I’m ꪜ𝑒𝑔𝒶𝓃 🌱), Emotions (I can be too emotional and it will tear me apart). I have also been told that I speak without consideration to my tones & attitude.

If I Could Have Any Superpower It Would Be:

Telekinesis and in a strange way immortality.

If I Could Have Dinner With Anyone Dead Or Alive It Would Be:

🤴🏻 👸🏻 My Parents ✨🙏🏻💝🙏🏻✨

If I Could Visit Any Place, real Ore Fictional, I Would Choose:

Two places;

* The first world be Egypt 🇪🇬 and if possible ancient Egypt 𓂀

* The second would be The planet 🪐 where my soul came from.

If I Could Be Any Character In A TV Show Or Movie I'd Be:

🧛🏻‍♂️ A vampire from Twilight, the true immortality and the only ways to be stopped would be from another vampire or were wolf. No human could stop me.

My Divergent Traits:

* I'm Black & White

* Literal

* Logical

* Loyal

* Stimming

My Current Hyper-Fixations Are:

𝔇𝔦𝔰𝔞𝔰𝔰𝔬𝔠𝔦𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫. I have only just realised that I do this a lot. I alter my reality to suit me. My favourite movies are ones that help me escape:

• Legend 🦄🧚🏻‍♀️😈

• Labyrinth 🦹🏼

• Pans Labyrinth

• If 🫶🏻

• Star Trek 🖖🏻 (Voyager is my 🫶🏻 choice)

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I Identify With:

* High Emotional NEEDS 😔 🤗

* 𝔸𝔻ℍ𝔻

* Ḁͦu̥ͦt̥ͦi̥ͦs̥ͦm̥ͦ

* A̷n̷x̷i̷e̷t̷y̷

* ĐɆ₱ⱤɆ₴₴łØ₦

* Mood Swings

* Social Avoidance

My Support Needs:

* Barefoot Walking 🦶🏻

* ℒ𝓊𝒸𝓎 🌻

* 𝔇𝔯𝔲𝔰𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔞 🧛🏻‍♀️ 🐲

* 𝒜𝓁𝒾𝒸𝑒 💜

* ᭙ꪮ᥊ỉꫀ 🎀

* ℒ𝓊𝓃𝒶 🦄

* 𝒞𝒽𝓁𝑜𝑒 🧚🏻‍♀️

* Consistency ⚖️

* Earplugs (Earbuds For Music & Active Noise Cancelling) 🎧

* Fidget Toys 📿

* Nature 🌳

* Quiet Spaces 🤫

It would be nice to say hello 👋 and speak so someone with similar characteristics.

Say Hi, Email Me ~

📚 Books To Read 📚

I Am Autistic is a tool for both diagnosed and undiagnosed autistics to explain or make sense of their experiences. It also offers non-autistic people the chance to learn more about autism from someone who is autistic.

Chanelle has created a simple resource that explains what ADHD is and how it can impact the different areas of someone's life.This is ADHD is a tool for both diagnosed and undiagnosed people with ADHD to explain or make sense of their experiences. It also offers non-ADHD people the chance to learn more about ADHD from someone who has it.

A deep dive into the spectrum of Autistic experience and the phenomenon of masked Autism, giving individuals the tools to safely uncover their true selves while broadening society’s narrow understanding of neurodiversity

“A remarkable work that will stand at the forefront of the neurodiversity movement.”—Barry M. Prizant, PhD

The best app I have used is

It is a social app for neurodivergent and disabled people alike.

Thank You 🙏🏻 to the crew of Spoony for creating this outlet that has helped me reach out to others and stopped me from feeling so alone in the world.

"just because your not alone, doesn't mean your not lonely".

𝓟𝓲𝓹 🦉